Okay, since I am currently incapable of thinking straight for myself, I’ve been getting input from trusted friends here and elsewhere, and the conventional wisdoms seems to be: do not make major and irrevocable life decisions when you are in a really bad psychological state.  I’m thinking L may have been right that quitting is a way too permanent solution to a temporary problem.  My fight or flight response is kicking in and flight just seems so much easier.  Not the first time I’ve been here, but I just can’t remember how I managed to get through the previous times.

But it’s not a decision I *need* to make right now, so better to keep my options open.

Which means facing the beast.  Seat of pants to seat of chair.  Nose to grindstone.  Trying to make something happen.